I didn’t want to sleep in my own bed, or really be in my room, but by 2 or 3 this morning that is where I forced myself to fall asleep. Had dreams about being in love with that kid at school who I can barely stand and being held hostage in a really deep and narrow sand hole on the beach. Now I am just listening to music and waiting for class. Damn I am gonna be late again.
I hate when I talk too much in class because it ends up making me feel smarter than I am.
Saw M today and forgot that I shouldn’t get excited (but I wouldn’t mind if he would show up around my room, I am sure we could think up some way to entertain ourselves). It drives me nuts that everyone knows M. He’s such an awesome kinda guy, and damn sexy too. I hate sharing, not that it is really applicable in this case, since sharing implies some kind of ownership. Someone talking on a cell phone today said that New College would be a great place to live if you were a lawn mower.
Went home with L, it’s her sis’ bday tomorrow. We had a fun car ride, I love hearing people laugh, it is such a great noise. Dinner with her family was pleasant, talked a little politics, but nothing serious. I forgot to thank them for dinner because we were in such a rush to leave. I almost wanted them to notice us playing footsies under the table. I wonder if I should talk to M about this. I don’t necessarily feel like I have to, but it does bother my conscience to think I may be hurting him (all from a little game).
We saw a strange clown musical that L’s friends were in. It reminded me of my high school days in a nice sorta way—a real rarity. It was nice to have such a chill sorta day, and I am glad to get away from school, there is too much stress in that place. Ahh! Me and L are gonna crash on her bed with a movie (and yes we are going to watch it, don’t even go there). Gotta go!